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The winner takes it all ...
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Hello-hello!
Time to change the journal mood!
I just read my last entry from July 12th and realized how old and out-dated it was.
So I decided to type down a new one with fresh information in it.
Well, after fashion design died for me as an aimed study course I switched over to costume design (because silly me was afraid of changing the main subject into a total different direction).
To be prepared for my upcoming aim of study I got myself a traineeship at the Oldenburgische Staatstheater (a known north-german theatre in the city of Oldenburg).
This traineeship was supposed to last for 8 weeks ... BUT: I cancelled it after 2 weeks.
It was absolutely pesky because my two supervisors couldn't stand each other and used me to ruin the work of the other. And in the end it was always me who was snaped at by the one who got hit.
Furthermore, the job of a costume designer appeared so boring and stressful to me (and I'm not about to waste my nerves for a job I don't like).
With these impressions on my mind I was finally honest to myself and admitted that I'd like to be a grafic designer or an illustrator (which were the jobs I hated the most because my teacher always wanted to force me into such a job-related direction).
After one letter of refusal from the university I was dying to go to and after realizing that it was the only non-private university in Germany where I could study illustration, I had the change to introduce me and my abilities at a known private school in the Hanseatic City of Hamburg. And: Was accepted!!!
This school will cost my parents a lot of money, but I'm really really thankful to them that they give me the change to go there.
And the moral of the story?
I will move to Hamburg within the first quarter of 2011. I am so happy about it!
Because of the whole portfolio thing I also didn't had the change to draw art the way I normally do, instead I made a lot of studies (color, drapery, anatomy a.s.o.) and used different media. Maybe I load up some of the pictures I really like, if I can make good enough photographs of them because some are way too big for my scanner.
Guess that was all for today.
Until next time.
Time to change the journal mood!
I just read my last entry from July 12th and realized how old and out-dated it was.
So I decided to type down a new one with fresh information in it.
Well, after fashion design died for me as an aimed study course I switched over to costume design (because silly me was afraid of changing the main subject into a total different direction).
To be prepared for my upcoming aim of study I got myself a traineeship at the Oldenburgische Staatstheater (a known north-german theatre in the city of Oldenburg).
This traineeship was supposed to last for 8 weeks ... BUT: I cancelled it after 2 weeks.
It was absolutely pesky because my two supervisors couldn't stand each other and used me to ruin the work of the other. And in the end it was always me who was snaped at by the one who got hit.
Furthermore, the job of a costume designer appeared so boring and stressful to me (and I'm not about to waste my nerves for a job I don't like).
With these impressions on my mind I was finally honest to myself and admitted that I'd like to be a grafic designer or an illustrator (which were the jobs I hated the most because my teacher always wanted to force me into such a job-related direction).
After one letter of refusal from the university I was dying to go to and after realizing that it was the only non-private university in Germany where I could study illustration, I had the change to introduce me and my abilities at a known private school in the Hanseatic City of Hamburg. And: Was accepted!!!
This school will cost my parents a lot of money, but I'm really really thankful to them that they give me the change to go there.
And the moral of the story?
I will move to Hamburg within the first quarter of 2011. I am so happy about it!
Because of the whole portfolio thing I also didn't had the change to draw art the way I normally do, instead I made a lot of studies (color, drapery, anatomy a.s.o.) and used different media. Maybe I load up some of the pictures I really like, if I can make good enough photographs of them because some are way too big for my scanner.
Guess that was all for today.
Until next time.
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I am sitting, waiting, wishing ...
2 min read
Hello my dears!
Time for a new journal.
Right at the moment a heat wave is molesting whole Germany and I'm nearly melting. You chill all day long in your house with the hope of rain at nightfall ... but nothin happens.
It's so ... hot.
Furthermore, I have to wait for the university to answer me whether I passed the entrance test or not.
To be honest I hope I failed in it because I realized when I was in Reutlingen last week that I prefer more studying costume design than fashion design.
The university in the Hanseatic City of Hamburg has the exact program of study for that.
I don't know whether a fashion design student can also work as a costume designer without studying the course of "costume design".
It's really a tricky situation in which I'm now. Because I told everyone that I really loved to go to the Reutlingen univesity, I think that, especially my father, would not understand why I suddenly don't want to go there anymore.
I will be in catch-22 if I receive the mail that I'm accepted for Reutlingen because than I don't know if I should revoke my application or not.
Moving from my hometown (North of Germany) to Reutlingen (South of Germany) is a big journey. Making an application for the other university after I moved to Reutlingen and maybe being accepted there would mean, that I have to move from Reutlingen back to the North of Germany, to Hamburg.
I think my father would never accept such a decision. My mother is much more understandingly, but I think my father won't be pleased by my change of mind. To avoid useless arguments with my father the only thing I can hope for is for the letter of refusal from the university of Reutligen.
As bad as this might taste ...
Time for a new journal.
Right at the moment a heat wave is molesting whole Germany and I'm nearly melting. You chill all day long in your house with the hope of rain at nightfall ... but nothin happens.
It's so ... hot.
Furthermore, I have to wait for the university to answer me whether I passed the entrance test or not.
To be honest I hope I failed in it because I realized when I was in Reutlingen last week that I prefer more studying costume design than fashion design.
The university in the Hanseatic City of Hamburg has the exact program of study for that.
I don't know whether a fashion design student can also work as a costume designer without studying the course of "costume design".
It's really a tricky situation in which I'm now. Because I told everyone that I really loved to go to the Reutlingen univesity, I think that, especially my father, would not understand why I suddenly don't want to go there anymore.
I will be in catch-22 if I receive the mail that I'm accepted for Reutlingen because than I don't know if I should revoke my application or not.
Moving from my hometown (North of Germany) to Reutlingen (South of Germany) is a big journey. Making an application for the other university after I moved to Reutlingen and maybe being accepted there would mean, that I have to move from Reutlingen back to the North of Germany, to Hamburg.
I think my father would never accept such a decision. My mother is much more understandingly, but I think my father won't be pleased by my change of mind. To avoid useless arguments with my father the only thing I can hope for is for the letter of refusal from the university of Reutligen.
As bad as this might taste ...
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Somebody, everybody, anybody shout!!!
2 min read
I'm done with my A-Levels and I passed it kinda well.
Right at the moment I have nothing to do. I'm waiting for my results of the first university entrace tests and I hate it ...
I've never been a patient person.
Further, I have really NOTHING to do. The first week after my A-Levels was very relaxing. Waking up in the morning, having breakfast whenever you want, and chilling through the day for how long your heart desired.
But now? It's tiring. My friends seem to travel around without careing much about their futures. Sometimes I think it might be easier without the aim of wanting a succesful career for the future but on the other hand I won't change my perspective only because of a few weeks feeling bored to death. It would be an epic fail staying in my hometown for all my life.
And I could never, I can never befriend that thought.
I guess (as kitchy as it might sound) I have to get used to my 'destiny' of being a lonely shepherd.
I've never been the type for partying around or staying out till dawn. I neither like alcohol, cigarettes nor do I like people who ask you out or those victims who try to be someone they're not. That'll be the reason why my friends seem to go on by themselves.
They like me ... of course they do ... as an onlooker.
Right at the moment I have nothing to do. I'm waiting for my results of the first university entrace tests and I hate it ...
I've never been a patient person.
Further, I have really NOTHING to do. The first week after my A-Levels was very relaxing. Waking up in the morning, having breakfast whenever you want, and chilling through the day for how long your heart desired.
But now? It's tiring. My friends seem to travel around without careing much about their futures. Sometimes I think it might be easier without the aim of wanting a succesful career for the future but on the other hand I won't change my perspective only because of a few weeks feeling bored to death. It would be an epic fail staying in my hometown for all my life.
And I could never, I can never befriend that thought.
I guess (as kitchy as it might sound) I have to get used to my 'destiny' of being a lonely shepherd.
I've never been the type for partying around or staying out till dawn. I neither like alcohol, cigarettes nor do I like people who ask you out or those victims who try to be someone they're not. That'll be the reason why my friends seem to go on by themselves.
They like me ... of course they do ... as an onlooker.
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Step by step
2 min read
Hia everyone!
Right at the moment I have to face my A-levels and it's not that rough as I thought.
I still have two more written examinations to go, but that'll be the easy ones. And after that there will be one more oral examination, that btw is the only one which I'm a little afraid of.
But I'll survive it somehow! (THIS IS SPARTAAA!!! ~Oh, dA should make a Sparta emoticon~)
My sisters' birthday and the one of my friend will be coming up soon and I still haven't got a present for them.
For my sister it's kinda easy because she already has constant hobbies but for the 18th birthday of my friend it's very hard. (In Germany you reach the age of consent with 18. Usually you receive more valuable presents than on "normal" birthdays and celebrate this day with a big party!)
Unfortunately my friend likes to change her taste of music, styles and hobbies very often at the moment and so it's freakin' hard to find a present that really fits. Further, she wants to have a "surprise" like she's seen on the 18th birthday of my other friend last year (she received a professional photo shoot).
However all of her other friends do not want to spent (much) money on her present which complicates the situation more and more.
What shell I just do??
Right at the moment I have to face my A-levels and it's not that rough as I thought.
I still have two more written examinations to go, but that'll be the easy ones. And after that there will be one more oral examination, that btw is the only one which I'm a little afraid of.
But I'll survive it somehow! (THIS IS SPARTAAA!!! ~Oh, dA should make a Sparta emoticon~)
My sisters' birthday and the one of my friend will be coming up soon and I still haven't got a present for them.
For my sister it's kinda easy because she already has constant hobbies but for the 18th birthday of my friend it's very hard. (In Germany you reach the age of consent with 18. Usually you receive more valuable presents than on "normal" birthdays and celebrate this day with a big party!)
Unfortunately my friend likes to change her taste of music, styles and hobbies very often at the moment and so it's freakin' hard to find a present that really fits. Further, she wants to have a "surprise" like she's seen on the 18th birthday of my other friend last year (she received a professional photo shoot).
However all of her other friends do not want to spent (much) money on her present which complicates the situation more and more.
What shell I just do??
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I feel sick ...
2 min read
Hia everyone ...
Geez, the stress finally caught me, too. I feel so flattened at the moment and I even haven't written my first final examination.
Though I actually don't really feel like being stressfull, my body shows me that I am:
My skin is very crazy at the moment -> dry, oily, dry, oily, ... and also my stomach plays tricks on me: I don't feel hungry when I am and I feel hungry when I'm not (stomachache preprogrammed
). Scary, isn't it?
Further, I have big problems with falling asleep. Not good for a person like me who normally needs about 8 - 10 hours of sleep each night.
Luckily I already know all the learning matter by heart so that I don't need to worry about that like others.
Jesus, I'm so happy when it's over at May the Fifth.
Tomorrow is my last offical school day before the exam starts with the first examination on Tuesday, the 13th of April.
Keep your fingers crossed for me!!
Auf in den Kampf!!
(This is Spartaaaaaaaa!!!)
Geez, the stress finally caught me, too. I feel so flattened at the moment and I even haven't written my first final examination.
Though I actually don't really feel like being stressfull, my body shows me that I am:
My skin is very crazy at the moment -> dry, oily, dry, oily, ... and also my stomach plays tricks on me: I don't feel hungry when I am and I feel hungry when I'm not (stomachache preprogrammed
). Scary, isn't it?Further, I have big problems with falling asleep. Not good for a person like me who normally needs about 8 - 10 hours of sleep each night.
Luckily I already know all the learning matter by heart so that I don't need to worry about that like others.
Jesus, I'm so happy when it's over at May the Fifth.
Tomorrow is my last offical school day before the exam starts with the first examination on Tuesday, the 13th of April.
Keep your fingers crossed for me!!
Auf in den Kampf!!
(This is Spartaaaaaaaa!!!)
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